didnt blog 4 a few days le..

friday,
had chinese exam..
paper was still alright..
after skool,
went to slacked ard tiong,
they ate food in kopitiam,
judy was so hungry..
after tat,
went to met up jie in tiong,
had kfc,
shopped ard,
went home..
nite,
wait 4 henry to pick me up to chalet
over at downtown east..
tink alot during e journey..
reached there,
catched up alot wit cousins..
started e problem again,
so sian and tired it's always becuz of e damn problem..
gamble wit family,
quarrel cuz of e stupid thing..
sighs..
slept,
so cold..
gt to slp without blanket,
and e aircon is blowing directly towards me la..

saturday,
had breakfast together wit family,
slacked in chalet,
chatted alot..
went arcade saw kuek..
he seems so dao..
ryan camed..
nite,
had bbq,
was busy bbq-ing otahs and other food..
wanted to go ktv wit family but no rooms le,
so went bck chalet,
aunt's friend came,
he bought 20 ice cream?
like abit too much 4 us..
anyway,
someone being so extra stayed over nite..
& everyone's nt happie abt it..
gave kor a suprise,
he's nt observant enough i guess..
finally after so many yrs,
i saw vincent..
he became so muscular and strong sia...
hahaxx..
gambled again,
funnie throughout..
aunt went off,
she told me something..
i gt no feeling juz felt like crying..
after tat,
when we are all abt to slp..
can u imagine 6 adults gt to slp on 2 single beds joined together?
it's so squeezy..
and 4 adults gt to slp on one mattress..
hahaxx..
so funnie..
im nice to help vincent to massage..
it took me real energy & strength to massage 4 him la..
he disturbed me,
don wanna let me slp okie?..

sunday,
early in e morning,
heard vincent's voice,
disturbed me again,
eunice bited me..
so mean..
had breakfast,
cabbed home,
so so tired,
slept..
than blah blah blah,
didnt really studied 4 geo la..
slept..

everyone can tell,
we are nt blind..
y don u admit it?

today,
had geo paper,
sucks like hell,
i almost did both questions when
im only required to do one..
luckily she reminded me..
F&N paper,
ok ok la..
still can pass de..
our class bullied e teacher la..
we supposed to have 1hr30min 4 e paper but we
asked e teacher to collect after 1 hr..
went off to tiong,
bought sweettalk,
judy went off wit xuanya to study 4 her maths and chem,
went 6th level to slacked,
went to rajar inn,
tricia,twin and steph was there..
after tat all of them went off,
left me & tricia..
went to BK,
saw judy & xuanya studying,
didnt wan to disturb them,
we are like theifs cuz don wanna get seen by judy,
but she saw la,
so we went in by front door,
studied chemistry,
judy joined us 4 juz a little while,
lynn & huiting came..
judy went off,
i went off too..
bused to grandma's hse..
studied chemistry..
slacked,
homed..
buai buai..

i didnt even say im gg rite?
as if i wanna go la,
damn u..

tml having maths & chemistry paper,
im dead tml le i guess..
watever,
i no longer give a damn to maths..

aunt:i noe i shld also tink 4 her,
but do u noe hw hard am i surviving?
everyday to me is juz like im dying tml..
if i tink 4 her,
she don even tink 4 me..
who will tink 4 me when i tink 4 her?
i shldnt have blamed her 4 everything but i gt no choice i juz
gonna push everything to her and him..
it's all becuz of him tat's y im in tis state,
thx to him i mean..
if u are in my shoe,
u will noe hw i feel..
hw i wish she's like u such a understanding and
don vent anger on anyone,especially me..
sighs,
forget it..

henry:thx,4 trying to tell her hw i felt,
but i knew e answer will be like tis tats y i didnt even bothered
to tell her hw i felt and everything..
i felt it's useless..nth will change..
she will juz start her nonsense..

eunice,fannie,winnie:mayb u guys noe hw i felt,
thx, 4 telling her and asking him to help me..
but since i knew e ending will be like tis than forget it la..
y waste u ur tiime..
there are beta thing to do other than toking to her abt tis issue,
cuz i knew her answer will be still de same..
i can memorise her answer le..
she will nv change it de..

you:i see no point toking to u le,
tat's y i don even wanna tok to u..
im nt e one tt's changing,
im nt tat bad as u tink,
if im so rebellious i shld have go out of tis damn place..
i somehw still respect u..
but since i see no point in it,
and u tink i have changed,let it be then..
i will changed to someone u don even regonised..
watever i did tat i tink it's gd,
u will nv tok anything abt it,
when i did something bad,
u will alwaus tok abt it,y is it so?
since u wont understand,
i wont even give u e damn chance to understand..
nvm,im e one to be blamed..

im juz donno wat to do in e meantime..=(
mayb it's all fated..